I am an introvert. My first exposure to this term occurred in my senior year of high school when the guidance counsellor came to every senior English classes and gave us a super long MBTI test. My result told me that I was an ISTP. My guidance counsellor said that generally the first letter and the last letter do not change for an individual, but the two middle letters do as we grow and develop. Since 2003, I’ve taken the online version multiple times, and the most recent results are as followed:
Well, one thing for certain — I’m an definitely an “I”, “T”, and “J”. Meanwhile, my second letter fluctuates between an “N” and an “S”. As for the first letter, that “I” is very strong in me, meaning that I’m a huge introvert :D
Recently, I read this article about Introjis, and it led to me to Introvert, Dear which taught me several new facts that I could relate to as an introverts. One of the facts I learnt is that introverts prefer to communicate with writing and typing over speaking because we tend to pull information from our long-term memory banks. Information also travel a different pathway compared to our extrovert peers. Introverts also become too overstimulated when dopamine takes over our nervous system, unlike extroverts who can handle the stimulation better. These would definitely explain my tendencies to prefer writing over speaking and why I get so uptight and stressed at work from the dopamine overdose. For those not aware, I work with primary school-aged kids so this means . . .
- I work in a super noisy, stimulating building that has the main area as one open space that’s divided into areas with no walls to cut off the noise.
- I have to repeatedly talk and make small talks with the kids, parents, and colleagues, which leads me to have communication problems at times because I express myself better through writing than speaking.
- I am constantly forcing myself to be alert because I need to be fast on my feet with these kids, and that’s not easy for me to do when I do prefer to take my time with decision-making.
- Literally, I’m in an enclosed playground, so it’s really an overload of stimulation!
Thanks to my job, I need a lot of me time. That’s why when I come home from work, I just do my Internet tasks and I crawl into my bed with my Kindle, DS, or Vita. That’s why I always tell my friends I don’t want to hang out on Sundays because I want to have at least one bum day in the week. That’s why I like to walk around and explore Seoul and try out new restaurants and coffee shops on my own. I need to unwind and escape reality, a reality where I have to be more extroverted than I want to, and I do recuperate through my hobbies to find solace. Don’t get me wrong, I love hanging out with my friends, usually one-on-one, but I need to be able to balance my life out, and this is how I do it. I will forever be an introvert.
What is your MBTI? Are you working in an extroverted career field as an introvert? If you’re an introvert, how do you unwind?