A Passion Explained

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Portie at Hell Beans

With NaNoWriMo going on this month, I’ve been seeing a bunch of blog/LJ/whatever entries about individual’s experiences of such thing. I have yet to participate in it because I kind of don’t like the pressure of churning out 50,000 words in 30 days and because I’m always writing for a holiday fic exchange around this time of year. I actually finished the holiday fic earlier than anticipated, but I still didn’t want to participate in NaNoWriMo. However, that doesn’t mean I can’t write something else at my own pace! In fact, lately I’ve been putting Portie the netbook to a good use by going to Hell(o) Beans in Itaewon, my favourite coffee shop in Seoul. With Portie and one of my favourite drinks, I can stay there for hours as I surf the net (yay for Wi-Fi!) and write fics.

Stephanie at Lunsh wrote an entry asking why we write. That simple question actually stumped me. Why do I write? I mean the simplest answer to that question is that I enjoy it, but after reading her entry, I actually started to think about why I enjoy it.

That made me think about myself as a child and how a simple childhood enjoyment turned into something I still enjoy as an adult. I mentioned before that I grew up as an only child and how I had to learn to entertain by myself. Well, the easiest way was to read, and around third grade, I was introduced to the genius of Roald Dahl by my favourite elementary school teacher. She read us Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in class, and that became a major turning point for me as I discovered the joy of books. I devoured whatever I read, which in turn developed my skimming skills.

A cool effect on the previous image, which I ended up really liking!

While I expanded my imagination, I never quite got into writing very much. However, that changed after I read The Diary of Anne Frank in fifth grade, which left an impact on me in so many ways that it’s not even funny. From there, I became an aficionado of the Holocaust, and I started to keep a diary. They were terribly written, mind you, nowhere near the standard of Anne’s, but I started to write these pre-pubescent diaries. Then in middle school, I tried to write a fantasy novel using the Megamorphs (aka Animorphs series by K.A.A. Applegate) technique of writing a chapter from a different character’s POV. Again, that was a mess of a story, and I am ashamed to think it was the best thing I had written. My writing skills disgusted me back then.

As I grew older and immersed myself into different hobbies such as animes, video games, and the big Internet, I discovered fanfictions. Oh. Man. That opened up a new can of worms right there. I became addicted to reading these stories written for fans by fans, and I decided to slowly try to write my own. The ones I wrote in my sophomore year make me cringe when I look at them, making me wonder why I was so stubborn to not have people proofread them for me. Luckily, I joined the Harry Potter fandom, and that influenced me to write and use beta readers!

Seven years later, I’m still in the Harry Potter fandom, I still write fanfics in this fandom, and I still read in this fandom. Being in fandom (and studying English literature in college) has given me so much — friends, writing experience, and most of all, learning experience. I’ve learned how different it is to write as a blogger, as a fanfic writer, and as an essay writer who learned to BS through the words. I love expressing myself through words, which has always been much easier for me to do than being verbal. When I write, I try to act out as that person, even if my acting skills are quite lacking. I use writing as a way to distract myself from whatever is bothering me. Simply put, I write because I enjoy it. That should be a good enough reason. Sometimes we don’t need to have a good reason to do anything as long as it makes us happy, and that, my friends, is why I write.


  1. Haha I don’t think I would like analysing a film like we did in high school. It would be hell!

    Thank you! :D

    Well there is an exam period after this week, but I don’t have exams. It’s strange – the year generally follows February to June, then July to November. :S

    LOL. I remember squat toilets in Indonesia. They were hell. I had to carry tissues around because no way was I just going to wash myself with water… ugh, TMI, sorry. But yeah – squat toilets suck.

    Wi-Fi rocks – when it’s good. The one at uni sucks and keeps disconnecting.

    I have never participated in NaNoWriMo but I have attempted to write a novel. It was about 100,000 words. I wrote it when I was about 15. It was so disjointed and since then my writing has improved. I had some really good points in that novel but otherwise, it was a slightly corny love story with a slightly corny twist. :P

    I love to write to express myself and sometimes to release feelings, or to share stories (that, with blogging).

    I loved to read when I was younger and I loved being read to – by parents, teachers, and so on. I had certain books I loved which I read over and over.

    I think in a way, Anne Frank inspired me to write in a diary. I kept a diary from ages 10-14, I think – or around that age. Then I got really into blogging, more into blogging, and blogged instead.

    I didn’t like Anne Frank’s diary, but perhaps it was just the part where she was talking about periods and female parts. I was only about 10 or 11 when I read it. But the ending really touched me.

  2. I love fanfics, I’m still about in several random ones on fanfiction.net :) Member for 7/8 years now :)

  3. I think it’s just awesome that you write fanfiction so much. I remember the days when fanfiction was so huge. And I always say, whatever gets you writing! I’m completely impressed with how much you’ve read and written.

  4. Like Becky I think it’s really cool that you write a lot of fanfiction. Thanks for writing a post in response to mine! I’m so excited to read about why other people write, and what influenced them to writing. Fanfiction works for you. Now writing is something you like to do. That’s great. :D

  5. I can really relate with reading except what really influenced me were Nancy Drew and Harry Potter! Man I gobbled up books right after that. But somehow, the love for writing never kicked in. I blog but I can’t say my writing is superb. It’s actually very mediocre. Urgh. Well i blog and write differently on essays but still… am so afraid of being critiqued. Sighs :(

    Good luck to writing! :D hehee

  6. I have not read a fanfic in years. But there was a time when I read plenty of fanfics – mostly Harry Potter ones. I find that those were the best that there is. The writers are good – no, they’re amazing!!! There should be a Harry Potter fanfic book published :)

  7. I LOVE KOREAN BBQ KTHX. I wish to go Korea someday and experience authentic Korean BBQ. Some of my favourites are pork belly, beef bulgogi, kimchi soup- okay I better stop now cos I’m clearly salivating haha.

    I’ve seen a few of my online friends blogging about NaNoWriMo. I don’t think I have that much of a time to write that much words D:

    The Diary of Anne Frank is heartbreaking. I agree, it gives impact to its readers. It’s one of my favourite books.

  8. I wish I had the time, patience, and will to do NaNoWriMo. I have a story idea that I want to write so badly (nice erotic slashy werewolves), but I know that, with school, I won’t have the time to finish 50,000 words for it in a month. It’s a nice dream.


  9. thanks for your “support” for Rice Bowl Journals! :)

    i personally shy away from the 50,000 words in 1 month challenge. mainly because of one of the reasons you mention. writing a novel is totally different from blogging. and i do prefer the nature of the blog than the novel.

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